Molly Lambert, 22, told how she lives with Pure O’ Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), where the compulsions are primarily psychological rather than physical.
As a teenager, she experienced intrusive sexual and violent thoughts and became afraid that she was a danger to others.
Molly was finally diagnosed in August 2025 after watching a TikTok video about P-OCD (pedophilic themes within OCD, which include unwanted sexual thoughts and images about children).
She emphasized that P-OCD is not pedophilia and chose to share her story to help those who suffer in silence.
Since speaking out, she has received messages from people of all ages who have never told anyone about their intrusive thoughts. Many spoke of years of fear, shame and isolation, she said.
Molly, a digital spokesperson and mental health advocate from Deansgate, Manchester, said: “The response has been overwhelming. People have been crying and saying they’ve felt this way for years and never told anyone.
“Parents are telling us that they are obsessed with hurting their children. Some have even been admitted to psychiatric wards and even tried to commit suicide.”
She believes the taboo nature of these ideas makes them more dangerous.
She said: “People don’t talk about this, which makes it worse. Some of the messages are from people in their 50s who have suffered in silence all their lives.
“It shows how common and hidden it is.”
Molly explained that her OCD led her to become obsessed with themes such as harm, morality, sexuality, and existence.
she said: “It’s not that you’re a pedophile. It’s that these thoughts exist and your brain is obsessed with them. OCD is all about uncertainty. It tells you, ‘What if?'” And you can’t prove it wrong. ”
She explained that the different themes felt like “the same lie in different disguises.”
Although the thoughts themselves were distressing, she emphasized that they were in no way a reflection of her intentions or desires.
Unlike some forms of OCD that involve physical rituals, Molly’s compulsions were internal.
Molly said, “I keep repeating my thoughts, overanalyzing everything, checking comments, and constantly second-guessing myself. I feel like I can’t relax.”
She explained the cycle. Resisting a compulsion causes anxiety to spike, but giving in only reinforces the pattern.
Even now, stress and fatigue can make those thoughts stronger.
For years, she felt trapped in what she called a “dark spiral” of shame.
“You think you’re a monster and you don’t deserve to exist. It’s how you see yourself that’s embarrassing. That feeling can linger years later.”
She believes that OCD can be particularly harmful to adolescents.
“When you understand who you are, OCD attacks everything and makes you question your identity.”
Her recovery was not easy.
She first went to therapy in 2023 and saw temporary improvement, but by 2024 her panic attacks had gotten worse and she decided to try hypnotherapy. She was officially diagnosed in 2025.
Molly said: “The aftermath of the recovery is terrible. The shame is still there, but it’s just quieted down. I have to deal with my ongoing emotions.”
She found that speaking up was a turning point.
“Getting it out was the most effective thing. I avoided talking about it for years, but once I did, it felt like the air cleared,” she said.
Molly also thinks there may be an even stronger bias against men.
She said, “If I were a man, I would be scared to open up. OCD is not gender specific, but men may fear being judged or blamed. That’s why awareness is important. It’s not a matter of desire or intent.”
Despite her intentions, going public led to abuse.
“I’ve been called a ‘nonce’ and told to die. I had to delete my Facebook and my mom is helping me manage my messages.”
“If people understand traditional OCD, they’ll see the same pattern in other forms. The reaction can push the patient further into themselves, and that’s why it’s dangerous.
“Intrusive thoughts can come on suddenly and feel vivid. You might be thinking about breakfast and suddenly imagine being stabbed. OCD is persistent. It’s a pattern in the brain.”
Pure O is especially difficult because everything is done internally.
She said, “It feels real even though logically I know it’s not. It’s exhausting and unrelenting.”
Over time, Molly learned to just sit with her thoughts instead of engaging with them.
She said, “I observed them and recognized a pattern. They need to be labeled as disempowering. People want them to stop immediately, but understanding it is the only way.”
“This is the advice I share with those who contact me.
“It gives people permission to take a step back and realize that it’s about their brain, not the monster.”
Despite her ongoing struggles, she remains determined to help others.
“My story has inspired people to seek help, get a diagnosis, and realize they’re not alone, and that’s what matters,” Molly said.
“If I had realized this sooner, I could have saved myself so many years of suffering. People send me messages saying they thought they were the only ones.
“It’s heartbreaking, but it shows how important it is to talk about it.”
Molly still suffers from intrusive thoughts every day and says there is no easy solution.
She said, “It’s the same lie in disguise, but recognizing patterns can help you deal with it.”
She emphasizes that OCD can affect anyone.
“If just one person reaches out for help because of my story, then it’s all worth it. That response shows how many people are suffering in silence, and how important it is to break that silence,” Molly said.
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